Love Letter to My Daughter on Her 1st Birthday

Danika Rain~

Our journey together began just one short year ago. It is amazing to me that we have known each other for only 625 days, yet I feel you have been etched in my heart for all my life.

You have become as natural to me as the air that I breathe, the beat of my heart, the blink of my eye. You are my weakness and my strength. My tears and my laughter. The end of one chapter, and the beginning of another. One we will write together. Our tears and our laughter will splash on the pages of our journey, our story will be written with victories and with hardships. Both will taste sweeter and be cushioned lighter as we brave the storm in each other’s arms.

You have taught me more than I ever thought humanly possible. A tiny little Buddha trapped in such a small body. For 23 years I have searched for something that I had no idea how to find. And in one short year you have shown me through your not always quiet wisdom, what true love feels like.

After 23 years of restlessness, my heart is at peace.

And although I am supposed to be the protector and the provider, you my love, have been both for our small yet completely perfect little family we have created together. You have protected my heart with your stubby little fingers, promising to never let anything happen to it that we can’t mend together. And you have provided us with more laughter and insight into this world than all the visas stamped in our passports combined. And every brief glimpse that you allow me to see the world through your eyes, is a glimpse into what heaven truly must look like. For you hold no anger, no negativity, no ill will, for anything. You look at everything around you, including me, with the perfect love that God has wished for us all.

We have created quite the indestructable tribe, you and I. It is as though we speak a language no one can understand, a secret that we hold behind our eyes that no one else can see.

I am so in love with you. It overwhems me at times the capacity of love that my heart can hold for you.

You patiently wait as I fumble around trying to figure out the how and where of our life story. You look at me and silently assure me that as long as I am there, you don’t care where in this world we are. And as I look around in growing panic at the world I have brought you into, you smile at me and splash happily in the bucket of cold water that is now your “tubby”.

This past year has brought us in and out of many trials, and although I wish everyday for the power to be able to promise you no more, I know that you trust unconditionally that I will keep us safe through the storms.

You have changed the way that I think, the way that I speak, the way that I act. You take my breath away everyday.

You have made me the person I have always wanted to be, just by allowing me to be your mom.
I thank God everyday for choosing me for this great and powerful role.

You are the light that leads me to the place where I find peace, the strength that keeps me standing, the hope that keeps me trusting, the breath in my soul, you are my purpose, you are my everything…

Ms. Danika Rain, I promise you today, that I will spend every waking minute trying to make you feel the way that you make me feel every second of everyday.

I love you so much more than even my heart can hold.


Love,

Mom